Just 'cause I can.
Two posts right on top of one another! Oh my! I have found a post that best encapsualted my previous rant... Defrosted Walruseseseses..... it's in november 2005.
In it I seem somewhat depressed and yet i still keep up this fun and funny little ramble of side comments taht I now lack. Then it gets down into some nitty gritty....
"This is "supposedly" me, in my life, talking about stuff that I feel like talking about. But I don't really talk about ME, or what i FEEL, and I don't think anyone really does. We just show shadows of ourselves here. And rightly so, for who wants to have someone on the net know the intimacies of our lives?"
And I think that's where I have gone wrong. I have become so accustomed to having this blog that i have been treating it like a diary. It is nolonger somewhere to vent my sillyness, it is somewhere to bitch about life. I do talk about ME and about what I FEEL. I don't say everything, because everyone still has secrets and shadows (something I raised with Genn over a mean and coffee the other other week, so it's still in my head which is always good to know), but I say more than I used to. AS terrible as this sounds, I think I need to stop doing that. i need to remove myself from here and replace it with "persona morgan" who while being still me is less likly to just come on here and bitch. Basically, I need a heap of sugar and coffee and then blog :P
i don't have any energy left for now, so I shall leave you with the sobering thought that as we have grown older we have "sobered up" if you will, and that may be why we try to head for the younger generation and the younger days, to reconnect with that which is still carefree and unfettered.
In it I seem somewhat depressed and yet i still keep up this fun and funny little ramble of side comments taht I now lack. Then it gets down into some nitty gritty....
"This is "supposedly" me, in my life, talking about stuff that I feel like talking about. But I don't really talk about ME, or what i FEEL, and I don't think anyone really does. We just show shadows of ourselves here. And rightly so, for who wants to have someone on the net know the intimacies of our lives?"
And I think that's where I have gone wrong. I have become so accustomed to having this blog that i have been treating it like a diary. It is nolonger somewhere to vent my sillyness, it is somewhere to bitch about life. I do talk about ME and about what I FEEL. I don't say everything, because everyone still has secrets and shadows (something I raised with Genn over a mean and coffee the other other week, so it's still in my head which is always good to know), but I say more than I used to. AS terrible as this sounds, I think I need to stop doing that. i need to remove myself from here and replace it with "persona morgan" who while being still me is less likly to just come on here and bitch. Basically, I need a heap of sugar and coffee and then blog :P
i don't have any energy left for now, so I shall leave you with the sobering thought that as we have grown older we have "sobered up" if you will, and that may be why we try to head for the younger generation and the younger days, to reconnect with that which is still carefree and unfettered.
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1:16 AM
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